Endings...

Hey gang.

Long time no talk right? Yeah, I know, I'm horrible at keeping y'all updated and what not. It's because I've got so many WIP's and nothing really complete. I kept feeling that I had to write something extraordinary in order to keep you interested. And maybe that is the case.

But maybe not. We all know that life gets in the way of what we love doing. And if you're lucky enough to get paid to do what you love doing, then life is amazing. Not all of us are that lucky though.

I was going over my works in progress today, and realized that I'm amazing at foreplay, but not so great at the finish. I think it's because I hate writing endings. I really do. I don't know why - it must be some sort of writers condition. Maybe it's because I hate that good things must end, because everything will, and does in fact, end.

But whatever the reason, I have TONS of great beginnings, and most lead to mediocre middles. But there's no endings. I'm absolutely horrible at finishing things. And just when I think it's safe to revisit one, to maybe finally get it done, more voices start telling me their stories and I'm really given no choice but to start listening.

It's really crowded up there sometimes.

I have notebooks with pages covered in little notes, or quotes, or point form plot lines. I'm so disorganized that there are days I feel there's no hope. And yet the little snippets keep on coming. Sometimes it's at work, where I meet lots of random people all the time, and maybe I meet someone so absolutely charismatic that they inspire a character, or situation. Sometimes it's the middle of the night, and I have to try and scramble for a pen to write it down. I have to say though, those notes are the most fun to attempt to decipher. My handwriting at 3am leaves a lot to be desired. And then, if I'm lucky, those snippets, inspirations and ideas become a beginning.

Which leads back to the problem of endings. I figure at some point, they all have to end, right?

And to tell you how deep the problem goes, I'm having problems ending this post too....