Overwhelmed....

There's the old joke. You can feel underwhelmed, you can feel overwhelmed, but can you ever feel just ... whelmed? What is WHELMED anyway?

Ok, so it's not very funny. But every time I think I'm overwhelmed I think of that. It's an automatic thing, something I wish I could just turn off. But anyway I digress.

So I'm in the final stretch for the current class I'm in - one more week until my final class and my final project is due. I have more of an understanding of what I'm supposed to be doing and I think I can pull this off. So I'm not so panicked about that.

I also have started doing this thing called "going to the gym". A foreign concept for sure, but I hear it'll help me lose weight and get healthier. And healthier is my aim for the long haul. But hey - if I can quit smoking cold turkey (been 39 days and going strong), I figure I can hunt down my "get-up-and-go" and get rid of this extra person I keep hauling around with me. I'm feeling confident for the first time in, what feels like decades.

Of course this comes in waves. Last night I was tossing and turning thinking of everything I needed to accomplish before I take a weekend away in August. There's the deadline for Sommer Marsden's anthology Coming Together: Hungry for Love with all proceeds to go towards the American Diabetes Association. I'm halfway through my submission, but I'm not sure I'm going to make the deadline. And then there's the call for short-shorts from the lovely Trollop with a Laptop, Alison Tyler. Those are due by August 15.

SIGH.

And then there are personal projects that I've set some self-imposed deadlines for.  Not to mention the day-to-day tasks that make up the business of living.

So you see, overwhelmed is exactly what I am right now. But, like the smoking, and this fat suit that I am (temporarily) wearing, I will get through this with flying colours.

Got something in the works kids. Stay tuned, because it's HOT.